Random nonsense

Love me for who I am,

Not what I am.

Hate me for being who I am,

Not what I am not.

Sometimes,

I wonder how the human mind works.

People always says the first impression matters.

But is it true?

Or is it just a statement to cover up the fact that Man is a superficial creature?

I was once told,

that I give people impression that I am not very smart.

I agree.

I am not smart.

Just a little witty now and then.

Life is so so tough,

Especially so when one step into the working world.

It is a dog eat dog world out there.

By displaying all your skills at one go,

You will lose out.

Eventually.

Life is very cruel.

For the rich,

maybe all they wish for is a little more warmth from the family.

For the poor,

maybe all they wish for is a little more food on the table.

Everyone has their own sets of worries and problems.

The only difference is the attittude they have towards it.

One can choose to ignore those and move on with their lives,

or,

fight them with all their might,

and pray hard that it is a battle to be won.

So,

which one is your preferred approach?

For once,

I know what I want.

I want to fight.

And win.

(I know that this is a very very random post which makes no sense. But I just need to let go of some of my feelings.)

is it me, or you?

Some how,  in recent days,

I seems to find fault with everything.

Everyone seems to be at fault except me.

What is wrong?

It is definitely not PMS,

then what is this?

Stress?

Anxiety?

I really do not know.

I blame everyone for the things that goes wrong,

never myself.

I hate to put up a facade in front of people I dislike.

That is why some says I am proud.

I hate talking to this person,

I refuse to answer the questions this person post.

I always have reasons for the things I do.

But,

are the reasons,

really reasons?

or just excuses,

or even cover up for my nasty behaviour?

How I hope there is someone who can explain my behavior to me.

Or just help me overcome this trying period.

I hate the way I am now.

The way I am behaving now.

I hate myself,

and the whole world too.

ps: I failed my driving test.

pps: I am going to NTU, doing economics this coming august. Any one else going?

atwork.

I know I have not update my blog for quite some time.

Been really really busy.

With work,

occasionally,

friends and family.

Just ended my tuition stinct.

Cannot cope anymore.

Really tired from my hectic work schedule,

which coincides with my driving lessons.

Tomorrow will be my driving test.

Hopefully I get a one-time pass.

So much more to update,

so little time

and energy.

Can someone help me??

ps: dear friends, please do not comment in chinese because the computer do not have the chinese software so I cannot read. Thanks!

thisirksme.

I seriously hate it when people break their promises to me.

Be it a minor one like,

cancelling on me last minute,

or not doing the homework I gave (my student).

I know that there are reasons for the above actions,

but have they considered my feelings?

How would I feel?

Like what I always tell my student.

Treat others the way you want them to treat you. 

If you want people to dote on you,

you should dote on them first.

Somehow,

the people around me do not seem to operate with that saying in mind.

They think that it is alright to cancel on people with little or no notice.

They think that as long as they apologise,

it is enough.

IT IS NOT.

Last Saturday,

I was walking alone in Orchard after I was cancelled by someone.

Someone I had not meet for ages.

All because he said he had work to do.

How would you feel?

If you had waited for the person for 4 hours,

then he just tell you that he cannot make it due to work.

Is it my fault?

Why do I have to suffer and bear the consequence?

Why you cannot tell me that earlier?

To save me the trouble of going down in the first place?

Why do you have to tell me that you are taking me out,

then cancelling on me just the day before it,

by telling me that you are too tired?

Do you know that I was looking forward to going out,

with you,

to a place I have never been before?

Do you know that I have been waiting for the arrival of the day for the longest time?

But,

by informing me that you are not going to be able to make it,

because you are flying off already,

this is going to sadden me alot.

Even more when the notice is not being told to me personally.

I wonder,

is this what I deserve,

for asking for so much,

from you,

for asking to be out,

with you.