My computer is still not cooperating.
Too much porn.
Cannot format.
Cd-drive is down.
Burner is down.
Everything is down.
So am I.
=C
Still sad
Backie~
I am back!
But only for a short while,
before my computer dies on me again.
It is infested with worms, spywares and viruses.
Must be the porn.
Hah.
Anyway
Prelim is over.
Holidays till tuesday.
Till hell begins.
ASK ME OUT!!
Went out with YanLing, Geok Peng and Priscilla.
We had a 2 hour long lunch.
Heh.
Saw 2 cute guys yesterday.
*Drools*
They have this,
Ah-beng air around them.
Hah.
Cannot blame me since I am into ah-beng nowadays.
Suppose to go to a workshop with Mich.
BUT THAT GIRL IS UNCONTACTABLE SINCE YESTERDAY!
Nevermind.
Meeting Jason for dinner.
My treat since he is always treating me.
I have got conscience too!
=D
Robin is coming over to format my computer tomorrow.
Byebye songs, photos and memories!
Argh!
Unsure what else to blog.
Too bored and hungry.
=C
*Gone on a search for food.*
Inner Thoughts
A lot of things happened this week.
Words flew past me.
Changes taking place around me.
Major decisions have been made.
The toll on me is getting heavier.
I wonder how much longer can I last.
How much more can I bear.
They think that by not involving me in the “discussions”,
I will not be affected.
No matter how loud I turn up the volume of the television,
it cannot cover their voices.
I hate conflicts.
I hate people who think that they are always right.
I hate everything.
omen
I fell down yesterday. After 1½ years of avoiding it carefully. It finally happened to me. After I have laughed at so many who fell before me. It was the OMEN. Telling me that the paper yesterday was going to be tough. Argh! I hate the wet stairs! =C
夜深人静的时候 不仅想起你 也想起了我们那美丽的回忆. 很想把一切都还给你 把所有的感情收起来. 虽…
夜深人静的时候
不仅想起你
也想起了我们那美丽的回忆.
很想把一切都还给你
把所有的感情收起来.
虽然我早已知道
我们是没有可能复合了
但我仍然怀着希望
希望有一天
你能再想起我
想起我对你的好
想起我们那段美好的过去.
请你给予我一个明确的意思.
我不想再迷恋下去
我很想继续我自己的生活
很想放下这个包袱
寻找真正属于我的辛福.
我知道
你并不是我最终的白马王子
你也给不了我
我应得的幸福.
所以
请你不要再利用我对你的感情了.
放过我吧.
请从我的生命里消失吧.
再见了
亲爱的
再见了
回忆
再见了
不属于我的
让我从获新生吧!
Updates II
Whee! I am back finally! Got miss me?! Heh. Went to watch the movie, Devil Wears Prada with Michelle on Wednesday! I love Miranda Priestly! She is hot! Though the movie kind of differs quite a bit from the book, it is still recommendable. =D Brought my camera out and took some retarded photos which I shall not reveal. Muahaha! By the way, i just had my bangs! Love it after all the initial whining.
This is what we bought for the movie! 2 bottles of mineral water for Mich, 1 apple juice for me and a BIG bag of chips as lunch. Yummy!
This is where we loitered while waiting for the movie to start and at the same time, for Mich to eat all her sushi.
Went to school this morning for Maths mock exam, Physics consultation and Econs revision lecture. Tired!
This is what greeted me this morning when I was preparing to go to school. =C
Connie and Yan Ling while thinking about what to have for lunch.
Yan Ling and me! =D
Reflections III
So, I may seem like a clown to some people, especially those from school. It could be due to my happy-go-lucky attitude in school.
I really wonder sometimes, how many people knows the real me. The girl who cries at night when she faces difficulties that she cannot solve? The girl with all the insecurities about herself which she has told no one about?
I know that it is not my friends who are to blame. But myself.
Daddy once taught me:
Never reveal everything to anyone. No matter how close you are. Otherwise, you will be the one to suffer in the end.
I have learnt that, and learn it well.
I have seen how people exploit other’s trust and used it against them.
It happened on me before.
Remembering the times in secondary school, I thought I had found the best friends of my life, friends who will stick with me throughout, attend my wedding in the years to come, my child’s birthdays and my funeral. It was not to be.
Things happen and things change. Some people are so ruthless. The moment you turn, they attack you from behind.
I have forgiven them though. But, I have no wish to make up. I do not see the point in being a hypocrite. I do not dislike the person does not necessary mean that I like the person. I would choose to avoid the person to prevent another round of unhappiness.
I do believe in forgive and forget, however I do not believe in, starting all over again. Things that happened once and again had demoralized me a lot in that department.
By not letting people know all about me, maybe even my future husband, it is a way of protecting myself, just human instinct I guess.
However, I am glad that I have still have friends whom I believe that I can count on.
Christina: She stuck with me since our Secondary school days. Regardless of all the stupid arguments, numerous fights, and distance, we are still the best buddies. Though we do not meet up often, we still make an effort to stay in contact. That is what I call, best buddy.
Yu Zhuang: I would not have known this lass if I did not go to Pioneer for 1st 3 months. A friend who is fiercely protective of her friends. Though we do not have any fights yet, we do have disagreements sometimes. One who is always too lazy to reply messages and perpetually late for appointments and blur, but still, my bestest friend.
Robin: I only know of his existence through Yuz even though he lives in the next block. Someone who is very knowledgeable and active. We might not be close friends but he is still, always there for me, when the computer-idiot faces trouble with her computer. A very good mahjong kaki plus best neighbour.
Zhi Hao: Friends for few years. Been through shit together. Almost like a couple just lack of chemistry. Been tasked with listening to me pour out my woes at all times of the day. Always there for me, no matter how whinny or mean I am towards him.
Jason: Known him for 3 years. Tutor for 1 year. Listened to my shit and vice versa. Gave me good advices and crappy ones too. Ambitious. Always the one who ask me out, when he is bored, or when I am feeling lousy. Best tutor.
.: Having few true friends beats having many hi-bye friends :.
Comex 2006
Went to the Comex 2006 event at Expo yesterday. Finally got my camera! =D
Met Ceyang and Robin there. I did not know they were both working for Acer. Such coincident. I was Robin’s savior because I got him a packet of Strepsils, which like, save him can! His voice was running out and tada! I appeared with the magic sweets! Heh. Now, he owes me a dinner once he gets his pay. I did not know that a small packet of strepsils can do such wonders. *Grins*
Met Zhi Hao there also, with his friend whose name I cannot remember. Passed him a packet of strepsils too. I am such a nice person. =D Met my secondary school senior, Wen Liang too! He was working at the same booth as Zhi Hao. Hah. He shouted my name so loud can! I think everyone there know my name already. Argh!
Back to my camera, I got a Olympus one, from Wei Cong’s friend. Heh. Quite a good deal I think. The friend was like so hilarious can. Keep persuading us to get from him. Hah. Some photos I took with my new camera yesterday.
My dinner! Bacon Wrapped Chicken Leg from Big O cafe. Yummy.
Wei Cong’s dinner! Sirloin Steak. *Drools*
Our dessert! Woah! Mango ice cream, strawberry ice cream and banana ice cream. Fabulous! *Can you spot where is the cherry?*
A funny sight we saw while going back home. Wisia Atria. Hah.
Reflections II
Sometimes, people tend to think that what they have faced is the worst that can happened to anyone. That is so untrue. Why can’t they think on the bright side that things could have been worst?
eg1: Jason crashed his bike, needs rehab for his finger because he cannot straighten it anymore. He is really worried about it and at the same time, piss that he is paying the price for someone else’s fault.
I understand his frustrations. Just like I said, it could have been worst. Maybe he would have injured some other part of his body instead of his little finger.
eg2: The girl whose boyfriend was 2-timing her. It was not the fault of the 3rd party because she did not know about her either. Why do she have to shift the blame to her?
I can understand that her boyfriend betrayed the trust factor in their relationship. However, how can she blame someone else for it? For all I know, maybe she did something to drive her guy to such a measure?
After all that i have been through, which might seem insignificant to some, I realized that I have learnt to be grateful for the things I have. I am glad that I have my friends who stand by me no matter what happens. So, a big THANK YOU to: Yuz, Robin, Chris, Connie, GP, Jason, Chrys and everyone else.
By the way, I am really proud of the bloggers who take the effort to reply emails. Eg, Kenny and Janise. I mean, who are we, the readers to them? They actually takes the effort to reply the emails, which may seem useless to some. This is what I call, successful bloggers.
